25 September 2008

Wishing...and hoping...and thinking...and praying

Today is 15dpo. Still no signs of the period...KB still doesn't think we are pregnant, but I am hopefully optimistic. The longest cycle she has ever had was 28 days. we are on CD28. So we shall see...We are not testing until Saturday morning--we decided. That will be the day after we expect her to get her period...so we will either have a celebratory or mourning dinner that night. Either way...I am doing okay today. It is weird...the first part of the 2ww, I was fine. The middle part was the worst. Kept getting caught up in every possible "sign." I was driving myself crazy. And now I have returned to baseline once again...okay with whatever happens.

On a slightly different note...I have been having some weird chest tightness for about a month. I went to the doctor 3 weeks ago and they said they did not see anything wrong with me and that maybe I have an anxiety problem. --listen people...I know anxiety...it is one of my main research interests...and this is not it. But her mere suggestion that I might have problems with anxiety sent me into an existential crisis. She sent me to the pulmonary specialist and an allergist to make sure my asthma and allergies were not off-kilter and unmanaged. At the pulmonary function test, I learned that I am not getting enough oxygen from the lungs to the heart...and that this is most commonly due to an infection in the lungs...not anxiety. The pulmonary technician hypothesized that I may have walking pneumonia. cool. They also sent me for some blood work to check my liver...I have no idea why. And they x-rayed my chest. That was Tuesday. So the first doctor (at the university health center...the most unreliable place on earth) is wrong either way. There is a problem...most likely an infection...most likely pneumonia. Where did they get their medical degrees? On the black market? They should have x-rayed my chest before sending me to a specialist...cause now I have to pay out of pocket for that lab work...but fortunately should meet my deductible for the year and will not have to go back to the university pseudo-doctors again. I should find out the results of the x-ray today or tomorrow.

So it is going to be a pretty big weekend.

1 comment:

nutella said...

Well, here's to the cycle bringing you good news, it sounds hopeful so far.

And boo on missed diagnosis! I'm gald you continued to pursue stuff on your own, it could get dangerous if left alone. And I'm kind surprised they missed it if it's walking pnuemonia. I've heard that it leaves very tell tale "bubbles" in the ears.