The big new years eve plans:

We are ass-planting and ordering in...all 5 of us...me, kb, puppy, kitten, and baby blueberry.

Why oh why...

Did there have to be a carters outlet store around the corner from KB's aunt's house in jersey?
We definitely stopped there on our way home today and bought six things...albeit it at very cheap prices!
Made it through the holidays without the cousins having any clue (until we broke down and told one of them! She kept the secret though) which is no small feat. Kb has three female cousins who have each had three babies. Add her aunt and that brings us to four women and 12 pregnancies. Man we were good.

Now just 5 1/2 more weeks till we can spill our guts to everyone!

Still just one baby and we have a heartbeat!

Five weeks 6 days today. We saw baby huckleberry on the ultrasound and actually saw the heart beating!
IT'S ALIVE!
102 bpm.
We opened Christmas presents this morning.
But this was the best gift of all!

Our little bean is no longer just a collection of cells.
It has a heartbeat!

An early urge to nest?

I am sitting in my office at work waiting for a patient who probably will not show up, as has been my personal (or maybe the holiday) plague the past few days. And honestly, I'm kind of excited because I didn't want to see her anyway...or anyone for that matter...because all I can think of is going home and starting my 5-day holiday vacation at approximately 930pm tonight! The wife still has to work tomorrow...which is okay, because I am going to spend the day making Christmas cookies, watching shows she isn't into, and crocheting baby booties. That's right. I said it. I have started crocheting things for baby huckleberry. I welcome this activity because it adds a little variety to my obsession from last week: sewing baby clothes.

Since finding out about the huckleberry, I think I have sewn 10 pairs of shorts, two fleece sleepers, two fleece hoodies, and 3 or 4 shirts. To put this into perspective, I actually set up the dining room table, named it my "sweatshop" and wouldn't even allow KB to set so much as a water glass upon it. And I made all of these outfits in approximately 3 evenings. Also, I think we already have about 100 or so articles of clothing that I made over the course of the last few years for the bean. It's nuts. I can never do anything halfway...I always go overboard.

So now, it's on to booties, and hats, and if I can find a pattern for crocheting sweaters for infants, I will do that too. I have a pattern for a two year old, maybe I can just cut the number of stitches in half...we'll see how that turns out. I have a lot of spare yarn around anyway...what else am I going to do with it.

But I am wondering what my next project will be. When will I stop? I feel like I only really have 6 months to get everything ready...and I work alot, so why not capitalize on my time now? Trying to pace myself...but it's too hard. I think this is my way of handling my excitement...and also of feeling more involved as the non-gestational mother. KB understands this, thank goodness...

4 wks 6 days...and already an ultrasound!

We had our first ultrasound (extra early because of the high HCG) today. They saw one gestational sac...so at the moment it looks like we are only carrying one! But anything could happen. I thought for sure we had twins in there with the crazy symptoms and early levels of high HCG...but looks like I was wrong. The ultrasound technician did say that it is possible for another sac to show up later, but for now, we are getting used to calling it "baby" instead of "babies."

We go in Christmas eve morning for another ultrasound to see the fetal pole and perhaps a heartbeat!

Also, we scheduled our OB appointment for the end of January already. One of our top picks and only two blocks from where KB works...it's all coming together!

We went for our second beta on Friday and our hcg went from 164 to 536. Progesterone from 64 to 72. So the pregnancy is sticking and sticking well! Also, the docs are taking bets that it's twins. My mother (a neonatal intensive care nurse) is worried it might be triplets. I think our RE is also worried, cause they scheduled an ultrasound for Thursday, which will be five weeks. Yikes!

Holy HCG!

So we went in for a blood test on Wednesday (which was only CD25--KB has 26 day cycles usually)...before even having a missed period because of the positive pregnancy tests (5 of them)....and Holy HCG! Our HCG was already at 164 (progesterone 64). No wonder KB has already been experiencing nausea, excessive thirst and constipation! We go back in for our second Beta tomorrow morning, just to make sure the HCG is still rising. We have become addicted to peeing on sticks just to see that awesome purple line...which is getting darker and darker every day.

So part two of the news regarding KB's HCG, because we have not technically hit 4 weeks yet (which will be on Sunday)...the doctor said that our HCG is much higher than average. We also know that KB had three follicles this month...they said that there is a possiblity that we are cooking up more than one baby in there!!!!

Oh Jesus Christ.

I am very excited about this possibility...and a little nervous too...KB may become a stay at home (or work from home) mother afterall...


On a slightly different note...the realization that we are actually pregnant is setting in more and more. I feel like I am walking around with a goofy grin and major secret at all times. I can't tell you how many times I've wanted to just blurt it out...but alas...caution is needed...it's still quite early.

I'M JUST SO EXCITED!!!!!

BFP!!!!!!!!!

BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So we couldn't sleep last night...at all. KB has had waves of nausea coupled with intense hunger and thirst since Sunday (9dpo)...which we thought we were imagining because that seemed way to early to be having symptoms...but this morning, we peed on two sticks and both had a faint, but very clear line! And just to be sure it was different than evaporation lines, I peed on one too...and as we suspected, I am not pregnant....but my wife IS!!!!!!!

This day is now entered into one of my top 10 days in life so far.

And now I am nervous about the pregnancy sticking...After all of our friends' experiences with miscarriages and infertility, I think I will be anxious until we pass 12 weeks...and then I will rest easily. That is only 8 1/2 weeks away...it will come quickly!

Now, back to looking at cute baby stuff on-line. Good thing my last patient cancelled and I am caught up on paperwork...cause I am going to be majorly unproductive for the next few hours!

A crazy three months

So...it's been a while since I've updated this blog...it's been a pretty busy season. We both started new jobs that have kept us more-than-occupied, we've been exploring New England, and there have been some conferences, etc. Sorry.

We've also probably been purposefully avoiding looking at other blogs, and hence have forgotten about our own. We were waiting until our insurance kicked in on November 1st, and it was just too difficult to watch other's getting pregnant, etc. while we were waiting for a chance to try again.

We went to the doctor the beginning of November, and were informed that our lovely insurance would not cover us until we had paid for 6 IUI's out of pocket at the doctor's office (I guess the one's I did at home didn't count). So we technically have to do four more before they will pay a dime. If we had known this, we wouldn't have waited three blasted months! But alas...onward and upward.

Our first appointment with the new RE was horrible. She had double-booked us after already calling a week earlier to reschedule us. Then they said they had an appointment the same day, a few hours later, so we both moved around our appointments to make this appointment (otherwise we would have had to wait another month to get in)...and then the doctor was 1/2 hour late to this appointment. She had obviously not bothered to read the chart, because she asked me if I was KB's "friend or cousin...or...????" KB became pretty upset at this, and not-so-gently informed her that I was her wife...which the doctor brushed aside...no apologies for being late or for making stupid assumptions.

We thought in Massachusetts we wouldn't have to deal with people being ignorant about same-sex marriage...and I guess now we are realizing that only close to Boston are people more progressive. Also, it might be just me, but fertility specialists in general should probably be more sensitive to the idea that their patients might not be straight since many lesbians require the assistance of RE's to become pregnant...I'm just saying...

So now we are on Tamoxifen. No more clomid for us. It thinned out KB's lining too much. We had three mature follicles (which is about half of what we typically had when on clomid, but still quite good). Her lining was within normal limits...and now we are 7dpo. We had to inseminate on Thanksgiving, with a different doctor (who is the head of the department and so much better interpersonally)...so if this doesn't work out this month...we are switching doctors to her as well.

The other strange thing that has happened that I am totally reading into (because really everything can be a pregnancy sign, can't it?) is that KB had weird nasal congestion for about three days from 4dpo to 6dpo. It was like a cold...but she wasn't extra tired and didn't have any other symptoms. No relief if she took an allergy pill...and not the typical nasal mucous for a cold...it was clear...
I've (of course) been reading about "early pregnancy signs and cold symptoms" on various ttc sites...which you would think that a year later I would be learning my lesson on this...and this phenomenon has been reported as a fluke sign of early pregnancy. so of course...despite how much I am trying to ignore it...I'm freaking out a little in my head. But much less than in past months.

7 days to go. Let's hope this works...for both us and our bank account.