here comes the irrationality

9dpo. No signs of pregnancy...but a little bit of irrationality from KB. We fought the urge to test this morning and were successful for today...who knows about tomorrow. We made it about 9 days without any freaking out. I would say that is pretty good.

I'm going to try to remain calm. I feel like there is so much riding on this month. If we aren't pregnant, we have to wait to try until the end of February...for timing issues and possibly moving issues...so that is what sparked the moment of irrationality this morning. That and the fact that EVERYONE WE KNOW is having a baby. Some of them didn't even try...they were "suprised." imagine that. too bad I will never know what that feels like. This whole ordeal sucks...bigtime.

We are watching our friend's baby tomorrow for a few hours. Could not be worse timing for us right now...although it might distract us from our suddenly invasive and persistent thoughts of being pregnant. Ugghhhhh....