Life on hold...

It's been a while. Sorry. A lot has happened since my last post. We found out that I have been matched for my predoctoral clinical internship in Massachusetts. Since we currently live in Chicagoland...we are mixed about this information. Super excited to be moving to the Boston area...super sad to be leaving our family, friends, and home in Chicago.

That said, there are a ton of great things about going to Boston. We found an adorable little community in the suburbs that we love and will probably look to for house renting. My new health insurance plan at the hospital where I will be working, covers fertility...100% (minus an office co-pay)...including up to 5 rounds of in-vitro...for both me and my wife, who will be officially recognized in the great state of Massachusetts. So yeehaw! These are all great things...legally married, baby financed by my employment, internship that will most likely become a post-doc fellowship--and then a job, potential for a back-yard for our current dog (and according to the deal between me and my wife, a second dog!), a state and city full of history, a new place to explore together...lots and lots of good things.

But good things come at a cost. For us, there are a lot: moving--both in terms of finances and in terms of the terrible loneliness that could ensue, what to do with our condo?, putting baby off again...until the new health insurance kicks in, loss of KB's current job...and a search for a new one in a terrible time to be looking for a job, being away from family and good friends...probably permanently as we are looking at this as a "relocation."

We have been dealing with this news fairly well, all in all. There are sad days, of course, but they are becoming more and more few. At the moment, I feel like I am in limbo. Can we just go already? And even as I write that, I feel anxious about all the details that aren't taken care of yet. We leave in July. 4 months. That is a lot of time and also very little time...depending on what you are looking at. Too early to find a renter. Too early to find a place to live in Mass. Relatively early to begin packing (although we are starting this because we have nothing else to concentrate on). Not enough time left with family and friends.

KB already has a few interviews and some possibilities in Mass. The best part is that there is no rush with the interviews. We are going to fly to Boston in June to look for a place to live and KB can wait to interview until then. This means we more-than-likely will not be seperated during the move (i.e. KB going ahead for a few months). This is good. I don't like spending nights away from KB. It sounds stupid and "too dependent." But, really it is none of these things. She just happens to be my best friend, that's all. And I like her more than all of the rest of the people on this planet...so it sucks when we have to spend a day or two apart...

And even though the details are not yet taken care of...I just want to be there...not have to deal with the headache of the next four months of preparation...start a job that I am going to love and leave one that drives me bonkers (well...not the job actually...just the incompetent people I work with)...begin our exploring...I'm on the upswing of excitement again...LET'S JUST GO ALREADY!